Tomorrow's a time for reconciliation.
I've been avoiding this day for as long as I possibly can.
I guess this is really it then.
Just a thought: How many of you actually lie to yourself?
Monday, September 24, 2007
You guys are the best!
Ahem. Test test.
Present from Mum was kind of overwhelming...for like an hour. Was on cloud nine for awhile cos I seriously never expect to own anything like that before my mid 20's. Of cos, it's not the heavy price tag that made it to one of the top list. Just that it was something I thought was beyond reach for at least the next few years.
But the best moment of the day was getting something for myself!!
*If you're wondering, these are my hands* obvious bah?
To:
ahkong zhimin xueqi joyce josephine calista qinglin sinli joanna shaun weian jiajun zhiwei jay candy sijia Joyce ruisi john yongwee kk junwei
thank you guys for making my day. : )
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Okays, so my first day of my 20th year alive was spent with ahKong and her BOYFRIEND zm (hahaha) in town after school. I can't thank you enough for making this day such a tremendously great day for me. Although your idea of a birthday card was scribbling well wishes at the back of the receipt of the present you got me - the ohgodsodamnexpensive bag, I still love the bag to bits. Maybe partly cos I chose it myself hor. WHAT?
Thank you jj and zw for the chocs and card.Present from Mum was kind of overwhelming...for like an hour. Was on cloud nine for awhile cos I seriously never expect to own anything like that before my mid 20's. Of cos, it's not the heavy price tag that made it to one of the top list. Just that it was something I thought was beyond reach for at least the next few years.
But the best moment of the day was getting something for myself!!
*If you're wondering, these are my hands* obvious bah?This is the last time I will get to see this. Took quite a while to come to terms with it. Kind of 不舍得去糟蹋他. But this is a gift to myself, a gift to remind me of my life thus far and a gift to remind me of the things I promised to achieve in life.我自己对自己的承诺。: )
It's the last rebellious thing I'll ever do towards my parents. (Mum disapproves, hurs) But it lets me remember the things I don't want to forget.
A new journey, a new life.
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Weeeee, another surprise by Xq and Sj at home. This year there's no ice-cream for cake but the real stuff. Thanks for making the effort to celebrate this day before it ends. Really appreciate it!!
Anyways Sj, I think you should stop with the "there's fire outside your house, open the door now!!" lie. Maybe you can opt for "Open your door, we're outside already."? Hahas. Much LOVE.
私の誕生日
I want to leave a few words and enjoy the last remaining minutes of being 19 before I bid farewell to the “1”.
I know.. I will miss you too. CRY!!!
Okays, it’s the PMS.
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so then.
It’s officially 12.00.
I’M FINALLY 20 Y’ALL!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!
You guys can now call me O-L-D.
I know.. I will miss you too. CRY!!!
Okays, it’s the PMS.
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so then.
It’s officially 12.00.
I’M FINALLY 20 Y’ALL!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!
You guys can now call me O-L-D.
Friday, September 21, 2007
She won't be reading but I'm still saying this to her: to my supposed best friend of 8 years - WQL, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! Hurs, I hope you do realise I'm still breathing. Happy Birthday to xB too : ).
Been dragging myself to school from monday to wednesday (I still and especially detest the jouney home when the bus will be cramped with sec boys and the scarce air permeated with the pungent stench of their fully-sweat-soaked shirt. It's an hour of sick nausea. Shit.) then slacking for the rest of the week. I literally am s-l-a-c-k-i-n-g. I would stare at the lappie with no idea what to do, stare at the ceiling when insomia kicks in, stare at nothing when I'm bored staring at the ceiling.I just sit there and stare till the sun comes up.
When I wake, the same routine continues. I stare at the tv, the com, the ceiling and then at nothing.
This leaves me with a lot of time at hand to do much thinking and therefore the slight emo. Probably because the road's coming to an end for my years as a teen. Approaching the number "2_" is frightening. *Shudders*Is this it? Forever goodbye to the "1's"? (20 is my new 21, which explains anxiety. I almost cried. Yeahs, I know, like ??? ) With it, comes a hefty price - Resposibility. It sounds immensely cliché but nonetheless, a reality. Being responsible no longer only for myself but also for my family. Little signals here and there and realisation began to dawn on me. How much time can I still spend with the people around me now? I hate goodbyes but inevitably all things come to an end. Be it time with friends, family, all.
Wait: I HEREBY APOPLOGISE FOR THIS MELANCHOLIC POST. PLEASE PARDON.
Many things I would like to achieve in this life - some, I've missed the opportunity to do so, many too afraid to take the first step and for others, I simply didn't make enough effort to do so. I will try, give me time.
Been dragging myself to school from monday to wednesday (I still and especially detest the jouney home when the bus will be cramped with sec boys and the scarce air permeated with the pungent stench of their fully-sweat-soaked shirt. It's an hour of sick nausea. Shit.) then slacking for the rest of the week. I literally am s-l-a-c-k-i-n-g. I would stare at the lappie with no idea what to do, stare at the ceiling when insomia kicks in, stare at nothing when I'm bored staring at the ceiling.I just sit there and stare till the sun comes up.
When I wake, the same routine continues. I stare at the tv, the com, the ceiling and then at nothing.
This leaves me with a lot of time at hand to do much thinking and therefore the slight emo. Probably because the road's coming to an end for my years as a teen. Approaching the number "2_" is frightening. *Shudders*Is this it? Forever goodbye to the "1's"? (20 is my new 21, which explains anxiety. I almost cried. Yeahs, I know, like ??? ) With it, comes a hefty price - Resposibility. It sounds immensely cliché but nonetheless, a reality. Being responsible no longer only for myself but also for my family. Little signals here and there and realisation began to dawn on me. How much time can I still spend with the people around me now? I hate goodbyes but inevitably all things come to an end. Be it time with friends, family, all.
Wait: I HEREBY APOPLOGISE FOR THIS MELANCHOLIC POST. PLEASE PARDON.
Many things I would like to achieve in this life - some, I've missed the opportunity to do so, many too afraid to take the first step and for others, I simply didn't make enough effort to do so. I will try, give me time.
Wokays, I shall not dampen this wonderful day any further~ See, this is what you get what you have sooo much time. I'm just going back to staring.
Saturday, September 15, 2007
HAPPY "18th" BIRTHDAY MY AH BU!!!
Haha, she insists she's 18 every year. Gosh, I'm already older than her.
Nothing special as usual, another mini party meaning yet another ear-deafening karaoke session with tons of her friends at home. Endure I shall~
She sure knows how to enjoy life, at least much more than I know how. Mahjong, karaoke, dancing lessons, make-overs, facials and blah blahs while I, on the contrary, very much prefer remaining in my humble abode most of the time. I think I look more like the mother, yes?
Anyways, here's to a healthier, more beautiful and hopefully less kiam pa her (I sincerely pray with all my heart she'll stop waking me up so sickeningly early in the morning just to have some lame stupid breakfast).
I LOVE YOU MUM! er, no I didn't actually say that.
Haha, she insists she's 18 every year. Gosh, I'm already older than her.
Nothing special as usual, another mini party meaning yet another ear-deafening karaoke session with tons of her friends at home. Endure I shall~
She sure knows how to enjoy life, at least much more than I know how. Mahjong, karaoke, dancing lessons, make-overs, facials and blah blahs while I, on the contrary, very much prefer remaining in my humble abode most of the time. I think I look more like the mother, yes?
Anyways, here's to a healthier, more beautiful and hopefully less kiam pa her (I sincerely pray with all my heart she'll stop waking me up so sickeningly early in the morning just to have some lame stupid breakfast).
I LOVE YOU MUM! er, no I didn't actually say that.
Thursday, September 13, 2007
IT'S BACK TO SCHOOL~
"Yeahs", "Sighs" all at the same time.
Kind of anticipating student life for some time but when D-day's here, yawns.
It's back to the 1 1/2 hour journey to school, go through the 3 hour lecture, then another 1 1/2 hour bus ride home. Journey just seems never ending. 3 days of school and I spent 9 hours on road. How ... is that?
Sidetracking.
These few days acquaintances are poppin' up in my tv screen constantly. It's great that they know what they want in life and are pursuing it. They don't seem to have any doubt about their future.
For me, I finally know what I want in my life but not until a few weeks ago. I have my colleague to thank for. The talks and all really woke me up. Better late than never right? So then, let's celebrate liberation from the "duh, I really don't know what to do with my life-I guess what comes, comes" circle of people.
New term, new life.
AND I STILL HATE MATHS.
"Yeahs", "Sighs" all at the same time.
Kind of anticipating student life for some time but when D-day's here, yawns.
It's back to the 1 1/2 hour journey to school, go through the 3 hour lecture, then another 1 1/2 hour bus ride home. Journey just seems never ending. 3 days of school and I spent 9 hours on road. How ... is that?
Sidetracking.
These few days acquaintances are poppin' up in my tv screen constantly. It's great that they know what they want in life and are pursuing it. They don't seem to have any doubt about their future.
For me, I finally know what I want in my life but not until a few weeks ago. I have my colleague to thank for. The talks and all really woke me up. Better late than never right? So then, let's celebrate liberation from the "duh, I really don't know what to do with my life-I guess what comes, comes" circle of people.
New term, new life.
AND I STILL HATE MATHS.
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